The Love of my Life

Last night I had a dream
It cut like a knife
It affected it so much
It was about the love of my life!

The man will remain a mystery
To everyone, including you!
He's someone I wanted to give
My whole heart to.

The man came at a time
When I needed him the most
When I met him
I learned he was from another coast.

He liked the same guy I did on Desperate Housewives
And he called me "Dude"
When I talked to him
He got me in the "mood".

We were so much alike
We shared our hardships
We talked for hours
We formed a friendship.

When I wasn't with him
During the night or during the day
I felt thin, hot, and sexy
If I daresay!

He started being controlling
I couldn't talk with another guy
So I decided
It was time to say goodbye.

A few weeks had come and passed
I had nothing to gain
To stay mad at people I can't do
I started up with him again.

We would always joke around
About guys we thought were hot
When I needed him the most
There he was not.

I told him about my cousin
The one that got married
He said if he was bi, would I go after him
I thought away he had carried.

Just before Christmas 2005
Something happened to undo the lace
When a mistake of the past
Slapped me right across the face!

When I told him the truth
Why we couldn't be friends anymore
He said he felt something for me
That no one to my knowledge had ever felt before!

I said goodbye
For the very last time
I feel that a possible future together
Blew up in a land mine.

My trials and tribulations weren't over
The feelings for this man were built to last
When I saw my favourite TV show's new episode in early 2006,
The pain I couldn't mask.

It was about the pursuance of a gay relationship
Between a teenage boy and his boyfriend
Whose mother didn't approve
My broken heart had yet to mend.

I was envious you see
I must-not miss
What I had trouble with
Was seeing them kiss.

Kissing or sleeping around I've never done
I'm inexperienced you see
It reminded me of him
It was just a fantasy.

When "The Lake House" film came out
It made me think of who (him)
When Sandra Bullock said the man she loved most
She couldn't give her whole heart to.

Wherever you are, I miss you, I still love you, and I always will:(